okays it's gonna be hard to post..
cos my whole bottom roll of the keyboard is spoilt..
then i hve to use the on screen keybord..
stupid rites anws..

ytd was cny celebrations..
nothin much to say bout it..

after tat had training..
it was okay la..
played match with snrs!
they all very GOOD!
I LOVE MY SNRS!(:

i think i played really suckily..
haiz fell down again!
my elbow hurts really badly nw..
ahh!

later went to dover have lunch..
ate with xuening, snr kim mary and martha..

after tht went to queensway with nat jing and esther..
look at the skirts for the team..
more or less decided alr..

haha nat jing and esther are crazy bunch of pple!
haha lotsa retarded stuffs they did heh..
went home bout 7 plus..

and i was locked out of my house!
cos i forgot to brin key!
stupid thing!
waited bout 1 hour..
but it was not so bad
cos my dearest xuening was keepin me company over the phone(:

oh man i realise i got sunburnt!
and a really ugly one at tht!
bleah!

hahs later i talked to xuening over the phone again.
AND I FELL ASLEEP HALFWAY!
heh today morning found my phone on the floor..
oh wells..

the ang baos has started coming in!
whoots bring in more!
hahas..

anws HAPPY CHINESE NEW YR EVERYONE!(:

i've got more to say but my hands alr hurting from clicking the letters soo..
tadas!

snr kim! hello!(:

so today wasn't tht bad i guess..

had hist then chi..
pretty okay.

had recess..
ATE A FEAST!
shared by me byje and salad((:

later had maths.
i SLEPT through man!
im like a walking zoombie!
cos i totaly didnt know waht i was talking and doin.
heh bolin said i took out my handphone.
like gosh i had no freakin idea!
i did not lar!
freaky!
then later nathanael said i asked him a question about swimming.
but i like so did not!
swiming?out of point pls..
okay so maths was freaky..
there's more to it but shant say..

oh and there's maths test tml!
i so do not understand!
and neither does more then 75% of the class.
so yea prepare to welcme a bombartion of failures..

though i understand abit cos i ask pple to teach me.
thank you!(:

okays later had eng.
spelling sucks nowadays!

then MUSIC!
omg like it's like haiz i also dunno how to say.
but caleb's grp do make pretty good gu niangs((:

hahas im goin to merge grp with anoter grp!
then i'll can be more slack and not so stressed(:

last period was science!
OH MAN MY SCIENCE CMI LA!
i prefer mr chan!
im so goin to fail the test!
and there's like also no time to look for teacher):

and yet again we were whack with ANOTHER pw.
of which also must be handed up after chinese new yr the week!
i seriously seriously SURRENDER!

later had training!
pretty slack.
as usual without coach..
im fallin sick soon i think.

OH MAN OH MAN!
IM DAMN SCARED FOR TML MATCH LAR!
IF WE DUN WIN THEN..
HAIZ.
I DUNNO!
BUT WE MUST!
WE CAN!
AND WE WILL WIN!
ahs i mus have confidence in my team and most imptly myself!
so yea im tryin!(:

kays so im still damn scared!
ahs!
okays nvm.
gtg study for maths test tml!DAMN IT!

toodles!

jim! hey i am NOT dreaming lor! WHY DOESN'T SURRENDER WORK!hahas i wouldnt mind it being the fall of aileen or whatever shit but i jus surrender!seriously!im tired):

liyan! yea we mus catch up more yea!yupps okays thank!and yes i'm tryin to cheer up alr..you to man!and maddy too((:

maddy! yea maddy thanks for being here!you cheer up to yea!LOVE!(:

BOO!:)))

okays i think this is one of my best days since sch reopened!heh
okay lets see from e start of e day..

I WOKE UP LATE!
hahas so was super chiong!

heh but i was still on time and early nonetheless!(:
PRAISE THE LORD!!((:


okay first period was PE!
heh it was okay but i DO NOT like mr neo's pe and maths!

heh had this hurdle thingy.
super funny actually i was jus DEMOSTRATING how to crash into the box in an emergency crisis..
but those stupid guys thought i really fell in..
like please lar it's so low!
i mean like maybe only SOME pple cannot lar.

hahas anws had captains ball.
a score of zero zero i tihnk heh.
super messy lar!hahsa

later had CHAPEL!
heh my FAVOURITE period in sch..
but it's like the atmosphere and liveliness is not there..
everythings diff form last yr.

but nonetheless my hearts is still on fire for worship for GOD!
so yea!
GOD IS GREAT!AND HIS PRAISE FILLS THE AIR!FILLS THE HEAVENS!((:

okay but we missed tht song cos they called the councillors out so yea):

later had english!
err we had a test which i didnt know how to do?
nvms.

later had MATHS!
oh oh highlight!!!
it's is finally scienticfically mathematically and whatever ly proven tht..
1.I AM NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO DOESN'T UNDERSTAND IN CLASS..
2.HE CAN'T TEACH FOR NUTS..(but he's smart.)
and everyone has to agree to tht fact!
point being: 75% OF THE CLASS FAILED FOR THE TEST..of which about 20 had a ZERO!
how cool is tht man!
hahas
anws i've got nothing more to say bout tht.

later had hist.
i think mr ezal was pmsing..
could sense it.
but his one of our best teacher so far!


had chinese last period!
ting xie.
heh i hmm SECRET!((:
later had some blah blah bullshit and stuff yea..

school ended.
went to t zone.
ate..
PLAYED CARROM!
heh my poor lil finger is pain lar!
and GLENN is evil!
MING RUI is nicer((:


okay later was SUPPOSEDLY suppose to have pw.
but yea you could guess.

played captains and monkey ball instead:P
sorry pple..

anws yea had fun.
goin to lil india later..

ooH im stayin over at maddy's place!
hahas coolness.

okays tht's all i shant keep jae sung waiting too long!
tadaas!

and im stressed out by over excessive PROJECTS!TESTS!AND WORKS WORKS WORKS!

freaking busy!heh okays..
and surrender never seems to work):

BOO!:)))

okays i think this is one of my best days since sch reopened!heh
okay lets see from e start of e day..

I WOKE UP LATE!
hahas so was super chiong!

heh but i was still on time and early nonetheless!(:
PRAISE THE LORD!!((:


okay first period was PE!
heh it was okay but i DO NOT like mr neo's pe and maths!

heh had this hurdle thingy.
super funny actually i was jus DEMOSTRATING how to crash into the box in an emergency crisis..
but those stupid guys thought i really fell in..
like please lar it's so low!
i mean like maybe only SOME pple cannot lar.

hahas anws had captains ball.
a score of zero zero i tihnk heh.
super messy lar!hahsa

later had CHAPEL!
heh my FAVOURITE period in sch..
but it's like the atmosphere and liveliness is not there..
everythings diff form last yr.

but nonetheless my hearts is still on fire for worship for GOD!
so yea!
GOD IS GREAT!AND HIS PRAISE FILLS THE AIR!FILLS THE HEAVENS!((:

okay but we missed tht song cos they called the councillors out so yea):

later had english!
err we had a test which i didnt know how to do?
nvms.

later had MATHS!
oh oh highlight!!!
it's is finally scienticfically mathematically and whatever ly proven tht..
1.I AM NOT THE ONLY ONE WHO DOESN'T UNDERSTAND IN CLASS..
2.HE CAN'T TEACH FOR NUTS..(but he's smart.)
and everyone has to agree to tht fact!
point being: 75% OF THE CLASS FAILED FOR THE TEST..of which about 20 had a ZERO!
how cool is tht man!
hahas
anws i've got nothing more to say bout tht.

later had hist.
i think mr ezal was pmsing..
could sense it.
but his one of our best teacher so far!


had chinese last period!
ting xie.
heh i hmm SECRET!((:
later had some blah blah bullshit and stuff yea..

school ended.
went to t zone.
ate..
PLAYED CARROM!
heh my poor lil finger is pain lar!
and GLENN is evil!
MING RUI is nicer((:


okay later was SUPPOSEDLY suppose to have pw.
but yea you could guess.

played captains and monkey ball instead:P
sorry pple..

anws yea had fun.
goin to lil india later..

ooH im stayin over at maddy's place!
hahas coolness.

okays tht's all i shant keep jae sung waiting too long!
tadaas!

and im stressed out by over excessive PROJECTS!TESTS!AND WORKS WORKS WORKS!

freaking busy!heh okays..
and surrender never seems to work):

HAIZ..BAD DAY AGAIN...
been feelin really upset and stuffs..


in fact i havent had a GOOD one day this yr.
everything jus doesn't seem to go my way..
i jus feel so sad, lousy, hmms i dunno!
troubled!
tht's jus soo many things on my mind!
in my heart!

i wanna give it to the Lord..jus throw away everything!
maybe then would i feel better..


i really want things to be like last yr!
when everything was soo much simple!
so much perfecter!
so much carefree!
so much better!


i'm going to breakdown soon..
actually i alr have..
but im goin break down even harder AGAIN.

haiz.
i jus wanna go to a world where i dun have to care about anything!
i'll MAYBE then be happy!


which is jus something i wish cos it's not reality..
*snaps*and i wake up again..

i'm trying!
i really am!
to make things right!

but somehow it ALWAYS ends up wrong!
i really really dun know what to do!
someone help me please!!):

haiz nothing interestin has happenm this past few days..
bad things have lar..

oh wells but i dun wanna blog bout them..

hmms normal day today..
i was feelin down:(
lessons were pretty slack..
i like mondays too(:

had training after tht..
wasn't soo good as well:(
oh wells things doesn't seem to be goin my way this few days!

but nonetheless i mus be happy!((:
so SMILE!If you can't lift the corners, let the middle sag!(:

okies toodles!(:

whee!okays today was rather fine..

managed to keep SLIGHTLY awake durin lessons..

as usual english was super bad.
got somewhat punished again..
i dun like my english teacher!!!


anws had training after sch..
me and salad were late.
thanks to jac(:
well cant only blame her had a part to play..
shldnt have dilly dally so much..


later normal training.
the sec 1 joined us..

yupps tht's bout it..
another normal day..

GOD ANSWERS PRAYER!((:

okies so today wasnt all tht bad..
lesson were alrites..

class contact was shittish though.
seriously my teacher thinks class contact is math lesson..
so he ends up teaching us..
when it's suppose to be doin misc and stuffs..

hahas anws was suppose to have traning after sch...
and then it rained..
but we still had traninig.
indoor and outdoor..
hhahas God answers prayer!(:


yupps then we trained..
it was pretty okay..
hahas im praying it would rain on wed!
cos it's not nice tranining in the rain!
hahas


yupp later had a very heavy/expensive dinner with my family..
hahas my daddy's birthday mah..
hahas i had crab, sharks fin and some more lar hahas..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY!(:

yupps okays im very tired gonna slp!
gd nites!(:


cheryl darling!thanks for ever being so sweet and nice and always here for me!i jus love you soooo!!!hahas love ya!(:

liyan!hahas fine so you havent forgotten me but you rmb maddy more then me!hahahahs

so it's rainining again today..
has been raining everyday since monday ..

jus got home from church..
got drenched in the rain.
gonna fall sick soon!


anws i damn freaking pissed.hurt.sad.angry..
with my family..
especially my mother and oldest sister and brother..


like they're so freakin hurtful lar..
jus cos i dun let my brother play the computer for his own good..
they start sayin tht im so evil so bad..
my mother even threaten to cane me..
by all means cane!i dun freakin care!
i stand by what i say..

and my mother calls me a shit..
like okays fine nvm..
i dun freakin care anymore!
this is not the first time anws..


and my sis like sayin im the worst sister ever and all those hurtful stuffs..
like all this im doin for his own good!
why cant they understand..!?!
i freaking so damn hurt i wanna give up on him alr but if i do he's totally gone case..


why cant they see tht im tryin to care for him..
why cant they even appreciate..
why mus they freakin be soo hurtful and say those things to me?


do they even care how i feel!
NO!
i jus hate them all la!
and im not jus saying this in a fit of anger but im serious!


i so tired alr i wanna give up on him i jus goin to care for myself..
by all means he can be a failure in life i freakin dun care!

i so tired alr im jus gonna give up..

okays today was pretty okay to me..

hahas was not so hectic and quite slack.
only had two types of book lesson

english and sci.

hahas after tht had IT then art..
i think i like fridays nowadays!

hahas and thursdays also..

it used to be tuesday last yr..



anws im so totally dozing off every class lar!
im so damn freaking tired i cant concentrate properly!
okays let's jus hope it's only the beginning and i won't be like tht in future..


hahas anws i had to go toilet every single lesson..
jus to wash my face cos i was uber uber tired!


oh and i so dun like art lar!
i cant shade for nuts!
i gotta get pple do for me!
hahas so pai seh!:P

anws after that slacked ard til 330 before duty starts.
play with gummy bears.!
MARCUS KOH IS SUPER SICK!


then duty started..
car park duty!
hehs well it was alrites.
hahas pretty fun..

jus as nice as ushering i guess..

but try standing for a few hours non stop and she whether ur legs will break!
hahas not forgetting it was raining!

so you have to hold an umbrella, a walkie talkie as well as give directions.!
hahas not forgetting the umbrella was freaking heavy pls!


anws it was fun the whole thing overall..

after tht i fetched snr xinyi and snr mary home..
cos it was uber late like 11 smtg...

so by the time reach home is 12 plus..

yupps now im SUPER DUPER UBER EXHUASTED!
i could prob fall asleep now..

but i cant cos i havent bathe!
so gotta go bath now!
hahas tata!

hahas and i wan the orientation shirt lor!
it's quite nice lar!
hahas im goin to beg the sec 1 for it lar!
or maybe jus buy wan if it's for sell!(:


jim!WOW jim so you've mastered the skill of clicking the mouse once eh!

tiff!hahas nah im as ugly as ever hahas..i'm missin you too la!so sorry jus tht this week i have been ever so busy!but no worries im goin to mangae my time well from now onwards so i
ll have time for everything!(:love ya!

okays today was pretty okay to me..

hahas was not so hectic and quite slack.
only had two types of book lesson

english and sci.

hahas after tht had IT then art..
i think i like fridays nowadays!

hahas and thursdays also..

it used to be tuesday last yr..



anws im so totally dozing off every class lar!
im so damn freaking tired i cant concentrate properly!
okays let's jus hope it's only the beginning and i won't be like tht in future..


hahas anws i had to go toilet every single lesson..
jus to wash my face cos i was uber uber tired!


oh and i so dun like art lar!
i cant shade for nuts!
i gotta get pple do for me!
hahas so pai seh!:P

anws after that slacked ard til 330 before duty starts.
play with gummy bears.!
MARCUS KOH IS SUPER SICK!


then duty started..
car park duty!
hehs well it was alrites.
hahas pretty fun..

jus as nice as ushering i guess..

but try standing for a few hours non stop and she whether ur legs will break!
hahas not forgetting it was raining!

so you have to hold an umbrella, a walkie talkie as well as give directions.!
hahas not forgetting the umbrella was freaking heavy pls!


anws it was fun the whole thing overall..

after tht i fetched snr xinyi and snr mary home..
cos it was uber late like 11 smtg...

so by the time reach home is 12 plus..

yupps now im SUPER DUPER UBER EXHUASTED!
my eyes can hardly open!
i've got aches on my body
and my legs are jus so jelly liked!
i could prob fall asleep now..

but i cant cos i havent bathe!
so gotta go bath now!
hahas tata!

hahas and i wan the orientation shirt lor!
it's quite nice lar!
hahas im goin to beg the sec 1 for it lar!
or maybe jus buy wan if it's for sell!(:


jim!WOW jim so you've mastered the skill of clicking the mouse once eh!

tiff!hahas nah im as ugly as ever hahas..i'm missin you too la!so sorry jus tht this week i have been ever so busy!but no worries im goin to mangae my time well from now onwards so i
ll have time for everything!(:

okays 1st day of official lessons.
hmm i was hyper/happy in the morning.

hahas i've been a little hyper this few days during class.
hahas okay maybe a little more then little?
hhaas talk and talk and talk!heh=P

hahas i heard frm my fren tht my frens are scared of me!
hahas cos i talk so much!

tht's crazy lar!hahas
anws maddy my mad partner..
okay pretty obvious from the word mad.
so you know where it originated from yea hahas.

anws my class okay.
heh pretty cool.

lookin forward to a good yr with them.
hahas my class is BIG lar!
hahas 44 pupils.
okay maybe not tht BIG!
but considered t other classes!

hahas funny lar!
every classrom not enough sits for all of us!
thank goodness im reg 1.
so im usually secured a place(:
hahas

lessons were okay lar..
pretty borin though.

and i dun like my english teacher at all!
she let's say punished me on the first lesson..
damn malu lar!hahas

oh yes and i stupidly returned my library bok and know i suddenly rmb i need it to complete my hw.
lols how smart am i rite?
hahas
so i've got to go down to the library tml.
scearch for tht stupid book again!
bleah!

and besides tht i cant do my hw tonight.
i've got to wait til tml!
WASTE MY TIME.
of which i dun have alot!
bleah!


okays after sch had training..
well it was rainin.
so training like on and not on okays nvm.
anws i was feelin happy at the beginning...



until some pple had to go and make me super upset and pissed!
or maybe it's jus me
i dunno!
i jus feel
soo stupid!
soo idiot!
so dumb!
basically i feel like an asshole!

i feel so cheated and made used of!
i feel so down.!


anws aiyah i dunno!
i jus feel so sad!


ahh i feel damn pissed and angry lar!
ah chill aileen!

okays im suffering a breakdown!

okays im not goin to care anymore since nobody appreciates or care!
have yu ever felt like shit?
cos if you have im feelin tht now!


smile aileen smile!
be happy!(:
and cheer up!

okays i guess im feelin better well i chose what i wan to be
and i wan to feel
HAPPY!

ah though it still hurts deep down inside..

i guess im jus tired.
i need rest..

i jus need a time out..


have you ever dun smtg and you soo totally regret?
i have.
and im super super super soo soo soo sorry!



hmms this are some stuffs which i learnt like in jus this few days?
1. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.
2. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.
3. When i say, "I'm sorry," look the person in the eye.
4. Talk slowly but think quickly.
5. Be cheerful always, a positive outlook can overcome anything.
6. When i lose, don't lose the lesson .
7. The three R's: Respect for self, Respect for others, and responsibility for all my actions.
8. Learn from the mistakes of others and don't commit it too.
9. What the mind can conceive and believe, it can acheive.
10. Have faith and trust others, but first urself.

jim! hahas you could have asked me for it!.heh save you the trouoble of finding for it lols.or it's at maddy's blog!and you tagged thrice then you tagged twice nice one lar.lols.

cheryl! im soo sooo sooo soo sooo so soo sooo so so terribly sorry!!

okays so first day of sch wasnt as bad as i thought..
hahas it didnt rain in the morning.
nor did anything embarresing tht is considered embaressing to me happen hahhas..


but i was late for sch hahas
okay maybe tht's quite malu.
hahas runnin into sch with a few bags like some kind of aunty hahas..


anws i got lots of nice stuffs from pple..
hees THANK YOU ALL!(:


yupps okay so my teacher aint tht hmm nice?
hahas i find him quite boring actually.
hahas feel like goin up to his face
"teacher you very boring leh"


hahas okay maybe he's new tht he has to go through every single irrevelant things with us..
tht we alr know or is not impt hahas.


anw i was like rather hyper/crazy/retarded/happy/laughy?
hahas i think they thought i was crazy of smtg heh.
hahas im jus being sociable okay hahahas..


hmms anws my class monitress is salad!
hahas by my recommendation!

hahas calss monitor is marcus koh.
hmms as usual.

class captain for girls is chermaine!
hahas she's okay.

hahas but the worst is class captain for guys.
hahas ching sheng!
like no no no lar!he's soo ego!
it's damn wasted he only won alastair by 1 vote!
i would very much rather alastair be class cap!hahas
anws i was like"CHING SHENG YOU SUCK LAR!"
okays i was rather mean but tht's the truth so why hide it..
hahas the pple were kinda shocked heh.


anws yupps had talks..
boring ones!
okay fine like what sort of talks are interesting?...


after sch had training!
hahas gosh i think my stamina is goin down down down!
dun care must train!

hahas reminds me of x country!
hahas im aiming for top 10 this yr!
heh i got 13 last yr!
hahas so i mus train!(:


yupps so overall it was a pretty okay day for me..
hahas not tht scary after all..

okies i got to go complete my hw!
hahas so tata!(:

okays fine i have since decided to start bloggin again..

hahas new yr mah so mus blog heh.

anws i realise how much i miss my frens and long to see them again!hahas or even hear them!(:
im glad yet not glad sch repening tml!
hahas sigh i dunno what i wan.


anws im scared for next yr to come
oppsy i mean this yr!hahas
i dunno.
well i goin treasure every single moment i have with my frens starting from this moment on!


oh wells i dunno i jus feel everything goin change.
im not goin have alot of time and stuff like i use to hav last yr.
i feel like im goin neglect some of my frens like i did to them last yr.
im sorry!
i promise i will make time for you all this yr!


hahas oh and i havent even completed my hw!
hahas dunno why am i feelin the rush!
i was nvr like tht last yr!
dun do i also dun care!

i feel weird!
oh wells i feel tml morning is goin to rain.
and i feel smtg embarresing will happen to me tml!
hahas okays i dun feel like bloggin anymore for now.

heh i think im crappin.
so tata!

off to do my hw!(: